A conversation about fear of losing my identity

Friend: I’d like to ask you about an experience i’ve had.

I was contemplating yesterday before sleep

and i was so focused on the awareness or space. i disregarded all thoughts

no thought appeared

but i felt a huge fear, because i felt as i was going to lose my mind

or my identity

so i stopped

Reply: You must be fearless when you contemplate the Self.

You must trust the Self absolutely

You will not regret it

If you do not fully trust the Self, you will remain in the doubt

The doubt will torture you

Friend: Yes i know but the fear was so strong, i felt that something bad will happen

because i was so focused on the awareness

Reply: Nothing bad will happen.

Trust the sages that have gone this path before you

You must be willing to abandon and let go of everything for God

Friend: Yes True! I must conquer that fear then

Reply: Not to conquer it

Let it kill you

Let it swallow you

Dive into it

Do not struggle with it

Friend: Yes I will do that

Reply: It is ignorance that dies. The illusion of separation dies.

Friend: i wanted to know what is that empty space, and why would i be afraid of it ?

Reply: Space is a metaphor for the reality of awareness, the reality of consciousness, the reality of God that is boundless, borderless

Infinite

Like space

The separate me impression fears its ending…

But it is through the ending of the illusion of separation that the revelation and celebration are possible. Do not fear the ending of the illusion

Friend: I understand , yes

i felt afraid of losing that separation

without it , there would be no me

Reply: The me is the illusion.

Why hold on to the limited self?

Why hold on to limitation? The me is a limited form

That is bound by time and space….

Turn your attention to the limitless, the infinite

Friend: Yes the limitless and infinite are what’s important! this limited body and mind will soon vanish

Reply: Awareness is eternal and unchanging…. it is causeless peace and happiness

Friend: Yes and i will discover that

because until now, i can’t really understand what it means Awareness is eternal

Yes, even though everything seems so real, but in reality it’s only an illusion

Is there something i can do to understand better why everything is an illusion

it’s just life seems sometimes so real! events, people, …earth ! universe …they seem so solid

Reply: The images on the screen come and go, the screen is eternal.

Reality is the reality of consciousness, awareness.

The images on the screen are impermanent.

Notice that the changing is not the real since real cannot change or else we would not call it reality

What is real does not change

Friend: What are the images then compared to the awareness ? just as light on the screen?

Reply: Yes. Images on the screen…. the screen is the constant

The images change

Like images in a mirror

Like waves made out of water

The waves change (each wave is different) the water is changeless

Friend: I understand,

The I or awareness is what makes those images exists

Reply: Awareness is changeless

The True I

Friend: I understand better Thanks i think i was afraid of my awareness

because it seems so infinite without boundaries

hahhhh

Reply: That is what freedom is = NO boundaries = No jail walls

Friend: YEs and it’s funny why i or we would be afraid of freedom ?

Reply: In ignorance we imagine happiness resides in limited forms, experiences, events and we hold on. Thus the contraction is maintained and happiness eludes us.

But It is silly to be afraid of freedom since we all love freedom

The borderlessness and limitlessness of freedom

Friend: Yes, Now i will dive into it

without fears or doubts

Reply: You will not regret it

Total abandon!

You are already the freedom that you seek.