Meditation – Understanding and dealing with frustration?
05/12/2022
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Hello everyone hello nathan holger hello esther george grace malcolm holly lovely to be with you
1:10 so from presence as presence you are undefined
you have no form no shape no size
as reality you are infinite
when you breathe it is the universe which is breathing through you
2:56 when you hear it is the universe that is hearing
there is no limited personal reality there is no person to comfort
with no person to heal
that is your direct pure experience
but that may not be your belief system in your feeling system which may be layers of thoughts
5:41 the direct pointing is reality pointing directly to itself from itself to itself
everything else is second hand
so in imagining yourself to be a secondhand character a third or fourth generation ask yourself what is it that perceives
in this moment right now
is it the body mind that perceives
what is my reality in this moment is it a personal a structure that is made out of memories and images and recollections
what sort of structure is necessary in this moment to be to perceive
can i navigate thought the limited process of thinking to come upon the ocean of freedom love and beauty
9:19 how many millions of thoughts and experiences and mind states do i need to know myself as this aware presence right now
how far back in time do i need to travel or how far forward in the future do i need to travel to
awaken to presence to being in this moment
how many hurdles do i need to overcome how many problems i need to solve how many attainments do i need to attain to come now to freedom
10:40 or is the causeless freedom causeless peace available right now in this moment of being being not knowing not in the past not in time
we have been playing the game of being somebody somebody to be respected to be honored somebody to be loved
this sense of personal self which is given so much importance what is it
what is this a sense of personal self what is it made of what is it that we are defending protecting getting irritated
can we can we see through this hallucination this process of make belief
14:55 make believe that i am somebody that you have to honor me and respect me
what is this other make believe myself make believe another
it’s a dramatic play that we choreograph and play
and then we we throw in the spice with we add to the mix the feelings emotions
it’s very exciting this way because then you feel it it stings there’s there’s something in this sting in this spice
that’s sort of exciting isn’t it
to be irate to feel the juices pumping through the body
face getting red the fists the shoulders the neck and the belly getting all hot
17:39 and then the barrage of thoughts how how dare they do this to me
we get a sense of self definition personal power
it’s such an ancient pattern has been repeating itself throughout the cultures
now it’s our turn to play this roll of a personal entity
it’s fascinating isn’t it
we want the world to respond to our unspoken conditions and demands
the universe should know better than bypass my senior
then we want to lash out get them down where they belong
not yet caught in the spider’s web can we then let the spider come and bite us bite right through our sense of self
can we experience whatever appears to us
with a interest
and interested is pure it is an open interest
where moment by moment we are discovered we are uncovered unveiled
truly not know
not to know anything
present in being that which we are we already are already is nothing lacking
no need to define yourself in any way
because you are the totality
rather the root and the trunk the branches and the leaves
26:59 we don’t need to beat around the bush
go straight to amness i am you will find it it finds itself
not as an object not as a form a particular form
but as being borderless universal being edgeless being not some concept not an image not an idea
you go from being a so-called particular wave to your true being which is the ocean
as the ocean infinite waves
but each wave is reality is true of its essence is our universal being
every cell of your being every aspect of your being is this universality
every ray of sunshine points to the sun
it’s called sunshine the sun shining
when you look at the sunshine you see the sun
whenever you refer to i you’re referring to god’s being
because in every self there is god’s self
back in every ray of sunshine there is the sun
don’t confuse yourself to be anything else
so be open remain open to the mystery
because god is mysterious
