Meditation – The Ultimate Fear
12/12/2024
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Welcome, everyone. Lovely to be with you.
So for the first part of this meeting, we’ll, spend some time together in meditation, and then we’re welcome to explore questions that you may have.
So sit comfortably, and you can turn your gaze inward. You can close your eyes or not as you wish, and, invite yourself to relax, relaxing the body resting.
And, invite your mind also to let go for now. You don’t need to do anything. You don’t need to figure anything out or attain any state or any goal.
Nothing to fix. Nothing to do.
The breath is gentle. Sensations appear to you.
Certain thoughts may appear within awareness, like, passing clouds in the wide open sky.
Which you are, this effortless awareness.
Which is not limited in any way. It is not obstructed by thoughts or by sensations.
You are the perceiving element, the perceiving reality, effortless.
In this effortlessness, in this, and as this awareness, there is no separation, no divisions.
No worries and no concerns.
A moment where thinking is quiet.
So welcome yourself as this aware presence, the reality which perceives.
There is no personal self anywhere.
In the wide open sky, there are clouds of different shape and different size, but they’re all made out of the same substance, water.
Similarly, your mind: various thoughts, various perceptions, various sensations. But they refer to the same substance, the same essence, which is awareness, consciousness, the formlessness, the formless reality of being, which is your very being, your reality and the reality of the mind, the reality of the world are one.
Everything you perceive refers to the perceiving aspect, refers to awareness.
Although we label the ocean, Pacific Ocean, and Atlantic Ocean, they are the same reality, water.
We divide the sky into the eastern sky and the western sky.
Conceptual divisions. You refer to yourself as somebody. You refer to yourself as this, but not as that.
But this division between this and that is conceptual.
The division between you and I is conceptual. Because there is only one I, one self, one reality, formless, invisible to the senses. And yet, without awareness, what would perception be?
What is the oak tree in the yard without the knowingness of it?
What is me without the knowingness, without the awareness.
And this awareness has no boundaries, no limitations, no beginning, no ending.
Why limit yourself with belief? The belief that you are somebody. The belief that you are a body-mind entity. The belief that you are born, that you are something which is born.
Because what goes hand in hand with this belief is the fear, the fear of ending, the fear of disappearance:
What will happen to me? Where will I go? What will I become?
What is this I, which is going somewhere? The fear of absolute disappearance. The end of what?
We know that thoughts appear and end, perceptions appear and end. But, have you ever experienced your ending or your beginning? Or is it one more belief?
The belief that I have a beginning and an ending.
This belief can be very troublesome: My ending, what is gonna happen to me, my life, my intelligence, my being, where is it going to go?
These thoughts, having a gripping power, can generate tremendous fear.
But what is this you, in this moment?
A stream of thoughts and memories and sensations, opinions… passing one cloud after the other, one dream after another.
And yet deep down, you know yourself to be this eternal formless Being, beingness itself.
But you don’t even need to know that, to simply cease to cherish beliefs about yourself.
When there is a small clearing in the cloudy sky, no matter how tiny the clearing, the sun shines through.
The blue sky is perceived infinite. Sky is perceived, through a tiny clearing in the cloud cover.
Simply cease to cherish your stories and your beliefs about yourself.
No narrative. No history. No story.
This may seem to be scary, to do, to let go of the entire structure that we’ve been identified with and we’ve been holding on to.
Fear of disappearing: What will I be without my veils, without my masks, without my identities?
You need to find out. To have to walk through this gateless gate, to explore life without being somebody, to be not-knowing, and not to incessantly keep referring to yourself as if you know what you are, this person, this narrative.
We are blessed with the faculty of contemplation, of inquiry, of investigation, about our true nature, about truth, about reality.
We do not lack anything.
This passing dream is about understanding, the understanding about the dream and its reality.
Because everything which you perceive refers to its reality. What is it?
It is said that “I am it”. But these words may not be satisfactory.
What will be satisfactory? Find out, look into it.
So if you have any questions, anything that you would like to explore, please go ahead.
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